伤日快乐

这一句“生日快乐”还真的够讽刺。。。。。。。。。。
因为我根本就不快乐。。

一大清早被气得火滚
一大清早就有本事让我哭。。
“你”还真行。。

你还真的以为我喜欢一直坐在家吗？
我恨不得马上去读书。。。

bad mood

一直以来我都很努力的
考好成绩。。原因。。
1。我输不起
2。我要进政府大学
3。我听很多人说国民服务第一批是给成绩好的学生。。

但为什么这次的国名服务爆冷的？？？
但希望我的成绩和进大学的期望不会爆冷。。
不然我是真的真的会变傻。。。



有时真的觉得自己有忧豫症，心理病。。。
或许是压力大，家人对我期望太高。。。
我真的不想一次又一次的失望。。

难到这是所为的人衰起来真是样样都不顺利。。。




救命!!!我真的不想那样。
从小就出生在小康之家，家不大。不是有钱人的千金，

但是我没怨。。
我认命。。
但是也不要对我太残忍吧。。
让我成功一次好吗？？


就一次次而已。。。。。

SPM

YES.YES........
SPM just left 2 subject only...
i very happy about it..but
after finish exam will start worry about result le..
actually i really hope myself can get full A..
BUT....scare it is impossible cause my language
subject is weak
so my new target is 7A..
i really hope can achieve my target...
i really hope i can get a excellent result for enter
local-u and matri..
god please bless me...

请不要对号入坐..
我要说的都说了.
要不要改是你们的事..
 我会闭嘴


就算只剩我一个人也无所为
我已习惯...
反正没人在呼过我的感受...

PECUTAN??

I THINK I AM VERY CRAZY..
cause i think to change back MES..
WHY??
cause i dun wan pecutan program..
tis program really waste my times...
leave at school until 3.45pm for wat??
just do homework only,,
hello homework i can do my self leh..
why need waste my times on there..

i very very very regret to change school..
last year i should think cleary before change..
recently wat is the reason i need change to ssas..
i dislike science stream but i also can change to
account class rite??

actually 5 smith dun have addmath i also can
take by my own on SPM rite??
but why i did think before i change school?

really many question mark in my brain..
now ad month of june..i still can change??
i also dunno it..
i think many ppl will say me crazy..

YES I am very crazy....
I am very stupid for did done a
good choice...

my dream car..


yahoo..i think many ppl ad know i got my license lo..
cause i have write at facebook mar..haha
i write cause i really happy.dunno which kns ppl
comes my status comment say me sohai..
palia de..i write on my facebook wall cannot ar??
need you KP ar??
i really dunno why tis world have like tis kns ,
palia,and add more KP de ppl
if really no" song" you can dun wan see my status de..
my status write only for myself SEE not for you..
take back your word larr.."SOHAI"

DUN WAN TALK TIS SOHAI LE..
erm..let continue my drive car skills bar..
that day dad give me drive from my house till banting..
wohoo..actually i have little scare behind de car..
cause my speed too slow lol
and when on the road dad say me no pijak break
when have car come..but i really have pijak
just let the car slow, i no let the car stop..so dad say..
haiz need practise 10 more times..
har??10 more times...
nevermind lar..the most important is
must train me until stable..
wah..if stable i can drive car myself lol..
so i must add oil lol..
cause i really dislike "taxi"life..
waiting taxi=waste my times..
some times 1 hour more just have taxi..1 hour if drive car
very early ad reach home lol..still need wait 1 hour..
pekcek when waiting taxi..
have passenger but taxi dunno go where..
no passenger all taxi come 1 by 1..
wat wrong with all the taxi driver???

no mood write ad..next times have mood
just write bar..and i also dunno wanner write wat le..

21/3

我对这次的成绩非常失望...
为什么呢??
因为这次拿太少A了...
去年少少都有五个...
这次目前只有3个萍果而已...
其它科目就还是个未知数...

addmath已经让我非常心痛了..
今天又因为国语让我心情突然
很down..
原本已为国语应该会考到不错..
怎知..??zzz..
算了...
下次我会更努力..毕竟这次的我
太临时抱佛脚了...
spm距离现在还有七个多月而已...
从现在开始我要拼了...
为了可以直伸大学,为了海外奖学金,
为了公会的奖励金..
我一定要加油...
感觉压力会很大..因为爸爸对我
的期望很高...
我会尽力的.....

3月4号

外公您安息吧....
您到了另一个世界,
一个我在也看不到您的世界..
想起以前一回到外公家,
就会看到外公您带着水壶,
从笆里回来然后还会很我们笑一笑..
会问我们吃了吗....
晚饭时间到就会摧我们去吃..
以前您一做工会来就会看看报纸,
坐在门口看风景..

如今我再也看不到了..
昨晚看见您一动也不动的躺在床上..
您的面孔没有了血色..
安祥的躺着有种感觉,
您只是睡着而已..但,,
看见啊姨们哭了..
我才相信您真的走了...
外公...
我相信您到另一世界,
也许是因为太痛苦了..
也许这是命运的安排...
...
外公再见了...

monday midnight dunno which stupid
ppl pecah my dad car cermin..
on that times my family and i sleep ad..
and when cermin pecah i also no hear any voice lol..
but when morning my dad wake up..
saw our car cermin belakang pecah by a big stone..
on that time we very confuse..
izizt is that lawyer??or others ppl??
we think is that I-lawyer lol..
cause that lawyer always wan my dad give him money..
but he also did helps us
solve any problem..why we should give him money??
no do any things then wan money
izizit this ppl very crazy...
before that he wan 1000 from my dad
but my dad no believed that lawyer..
so just give him 500..
but he did do anythings and wanner 3000++
from my dad again..
then that ppl always phone my dad
but my dad ignore that..
after sum month..
that is monday29 nov..
our car cermin pecah le..
if report police that cermin
money cannot pay by insurans...
and if report police we also dunno is who done it..
so we consider no report lol..
later that car will go repair ..
hope after repair the car can be safe
and after monday..our house lamp on from night
until morning just off it..
we done this hope can protect our car..
and that ppl i think dun will stupid until
throw stone again in a lightly place..
if that ppl done again..is really stupid de..
anyway..hope will know is who done de..

14/9

本来我真的很懒惰更新的,可是我真的
忍不下这口气了...
对!!也许对你来说是一种伤害,
但是你到底知不知到我为什么对你
反感吗??

你每做一样事情都不想下自己有没有错,
我有告诉别人关于这件事的前因
后果,来拢去迈也只是一两个我信的过的朋友而已,
而你到处告诉别人我几坏,害
我好像动物酱的被人看待...要我帮忙就办熟,
不需要我时就冷落我,我何时变到那么可悲,
我自己都不知到

今年开始我的人际关系突然变到不好,
就以前一直嘘寒问软的朋友,也那样看待我..

某某人你高兴了吧,这就是你想看到的不是吗?
每个人都觉得你对,你爽了吧?
我不懂是不是前世欠了你,就算欠,
现在也还够了吧...
请你不要一直在"非死不可"暗讽我了,
你写也写够了吧?
还要多少人同情你,你说你very hurt
但你这样"整"我对我来说就不是伤害吗?
算我输了可以了吗?
我不想再和你有任何瓜葛..

my mood

Daddy mumy..
i ad loss my self confident le..
can you both dun every times ask my face mah..
that ppl also say ad lol wan recover in 1 week that
is impossible ..
that is my face i more care then you both..
you both always ask and say wat no recover..
omg that is my face..
have recover or not recover
only me know only...
please dun ask le larr..
you both really wan i cry 1 times again ar??
that day saw me cry you both also
felt miracle le..cause you both
not saw clearly my face..
then after i use that cellnique product about 4 day
just come see my face clearly and ask this
ask that..
omg....that is before de scar lah..
not pimples ok..if no use that product
you both will saw my face more terrible le..
so please lar..
dun keep ask ask and ask larr.
when it recover i will tell you both..
hates ppl always talk my face
you all think i wan my face like this ar??
please lar i am girls..
face is important to me leh...
i also dun wan de lar..
so please shut up..
i know my blog keep saying my face
is very boring..
but i really angry and no place
can let me 发泄so i just
write it in my blog...
hope it can recover ...give back
my cleary face..

Finally my dad buy that product for me..
hope it can help my face as fast as possible..
i really cannot tahan my terrible face ad...

25/7

my face disfigure ad..
i really dunno why my face will
become like this..
i really wan know de reason..
yesterday i went to cellnique
wash my face..but that ppl say i too
late ad..actually my face did have pimples
problem but have scar problem....
why will like this...shit..

last year my face also have 1 time like this but
recover many month ago le..
now the problem come again..
how can i accept..
my smooth face disappear ad..
today i dun wan go out..and cry many time...
i really cannot accept my face...

this problem is about my face too sensitive...
the face product did suitable for me..
so they suggest me use their product..
then after reach home i told my parent
to buy for me but they scare
later my face did suitable then waste money..
but if not try..
my scar problem will more serious..
dad and mum.:
are you both know my face is very important
to me..
i know you both earn money very hard..
but do you both wan your daughter face
become like this..
now i really no dare go out
i ad no more self confident..
i ad scare go to school..
god..help me..
i need your help...

补回昨天的
昨天在面子书发泄后就把
文章删除了所以朋友没看到
以下是藕昨天写的

"c wen你懂你很过份吗?
hari koperasi那天是你自己先
对我们不理不采,所以我也告诉自己不
会理你.
可是你却在某男生面前扮可怜
说别人一直说你坏话
拜托你敢承认我说的不是时实...
你以前不是很喜欢叫你的男友
找别人事情吗?
怎么现在转性了?
前几年你为了男生而时常逃课
还和男生在巴士上做些不雅观的行为
可是我都没因此而排斥你..
而你现在却无理由的
对我们不理不采就别怪我无情..
我们的友宜就此结束.."

that is all i post at facebook yesterday lol

today you very silent in class..
but i very happy cause no ppl wan join you..
pity girls..
is you let our friendship like this de..
so please dun try to talk with me..
i dun wan hear your voice anymore..
我忍你很久只是不想说而已
你竟然很早就看我不爽那就早说嘛..
no need waste my time...
每天说某人is roti girls..
i think the roti girls is you ba??
只是不想炸你而已....

I create a new blog ad lol..
Because i lose my blogspot address ad.
So...cannot sign in ti decorate my blog lol..
anyway i create a new blog..
Hope i will write it every day lol

Today nothing happend lol..
just morning have account tuition..
i very angry about de taxi lol..
i wait about 45 minute le.still no have taxi..
if got also no place le cause have passenger ad
Haiz..why i so unlucky...
when reach tuition place ad 9.30am..
luckyly teacher havent start lol..

this all for today dam boring de